Is no news good news?
I just don’t know.
We visited Gizmo yesterday afternoon.
They set up a little room and set Gizmo up in a little heated incubator and brought him to see us in the room. He seemed low key, tired, but pleased to see us. He just wanted me to do nothing but scratch his head and neck. Kirk whistled to him and his little eyes pinned and he made his little beak actions that Kirk typically gets from him.
So his little brain is well and fully there.
But the ticker is tired.
We visited until it was clear that he was tuckered out.
Dr. MacDonald came to speak with us and asked us what we thought.
Slow, tired, but it’s his sleepy time of day normally.
She said that yes, this is the lowest point of the day and she wanted to know if he seems lower or not.
Maybe some, yes. We described his typical day…sleepy until I come down at around 6am, then a bit nutty, eventually going into rest mode again until around noonish, then another peak of varying duration, then sleepy time until around dinner, when he eats and yells, and sometimes destroys things….
The valleys have been deeper and the peaks lower for the past few years, but that’s the basic routine.
She said that she “couldn’t promise immortality” and asked us if we wanted to leave him to see how it goes for another day.
“Yes….but his welfare has to come before my emotions“, was my reply.
I asked if he’d been eating and she said yes, but that they are also hand feeding him with a syringe. She said that the fluid not he heart and in his abdomen has gone, and now she just wants to see if she can get his heart working better again. She said that basically they are feeding and medicating him and then they just leave him alone to sleep. She had done two ultrasounds by yesterday afternoon and the second looked better. She hadn’t done any bloodwork yet, because he was still so fragile, but she was thinking that she might do that soon.
And so we continue to wait.
She said that she would call again today, but hasn’t yet. So I have knots in my stomach and in my back…and we wait, hoping that no news is good news.
And we are still unsure if he will come home.
