I had another moderately crazy day, and I’m feeling frustrated at how many things I’m trying to juggle. There used to be three of us, well….let’s be honest and call it two….and now there is me, and a new person…..who is proving to be highly capable, so that’s awesome and a definite improvement from where things stood even just a month ago.
I’m building a new team to increase capacity, but it’s been a nightmare trying to get things moving and, in the meantime, I’m doing the equivalent of three jobs. I can live with that, but it’s challenging feeling like I’m not getting things done that I should be getting done, because someone left a mess and I’m trying to figure out how to clean it up, while still meeting the increasing requests that are coming in and piling up.
And even that would be ok….but then I get onto a meeting and one particular individual mansplains something in the chat bar, and adds one single reference, like that one reference somehow means all of the other works out there that say something different are overruled….. Have we not made it past that sort of cherry picking of information…“Look, this one reference says what I say so I’m right and you’re wrong, even though you were formally trained in the field and I was not.” …and so yeah…it set my brain on fire
I should have gone for a run after work, but I’ve been “not-mad” for long enough now that I know it would be a rage-run, and that’s not ideal.
So I came home, took out the camera, and reminded myself that most of the other participants were my peers in another life (and so sort of still are), that they know me and my knowledge well enough that they would have seen the mansplaining for what it was, and that (if I could have seen them) there was probably some head shaking going on from the scientists at the bureaucrat.
I need to remind myself to focus on what matters and to try to ignore the insufferable narcissistic tendencies of some people.
But damn, sometimes it’s hard!
So, find my Happy Place, and here are three images taken of my antique Minolta Autocord twin lens reflex camera.
