44-52-2011: Bursting Balloons

44-52-2011: Bursting Balloons

44-52-2011: Bursting Balloons

Have you ever had someone take something intangible from you?  It’s not easy to explain, but it hurts, even more so when it is a friend, and in the end they manage to damage the friendship, but they probably won’t understand what they did, mainly because even you can’t really put your feelings into words. It’s not like one little thing does it, more like one little thing becomes the last thing you can deal with. It’s all the little things that added up. There is the over-compensating, the over-intensity, the over-achieving, the over-friendliness, over-analytical tendencies, the over-enthusiasm. It’s overwhelming and gets uncomfortable. When they show up in the same places, use the same words, curry the same friendships, want to do the same things you do and dress the same way to do it. When they cry on your shoulder about finances and the future, and then the next moment they spend, spend, spend on things that are luxury items, it becomes too much eventually. Sort of like a woman I knew, back when, who so desperately wanted marriage that she drove every boyfriend away because she was so intense. There is a point, somewhere between someone trying something out, and trying to squeeze every last drop out of an experience, a point where they can end up alienating the very people they are trying to connect with or emulate. And you know that they just don’t have a clue as to what they have done and, sadly, history has a habit of repeating itself because they fail to look inwards. In an attempt to be hyper-aware of everything, they don’t seem to be really ‘aware’ of themselves.

A wedge is driven into the friendship and you feel somewhat used, as if an experience you were holding out for and looking forward to was been taken from you. It makes you remember why you keep things to yourself and don’t open up to people very much – they might take from you those completely intangible things that mean so much, and somehow betray an unexplainable trust. You feel stepped on, at the mercy of someone’s selfish need to have everything immediately. Like someone stole your highly anticipated ice cream cone right out of your eager hands because they had to have it first. You feel like a child again, but sometimes our most basic inside wants and needs are childish. And sometimes you can’t explain why something someone has done feels cruel any better than that.

October 31st, 2011|52 Weeks 2011|10 Comments

10 Comments

  1. Flickr: Harris Hui October 31, 2011 at 6:34 pm

    Love the back light! Paige
    Happy Halloween!
    Bursting balloons are scary!
    Friends betrayals are more scary!

  2. Harris Hui (in search of light) October 31, 2011 at 6:34 pm

    Love the back light! Paige
    Happy Halloween!
    Bursting balloons are scary!
    Friends betrayals are more scary!

  3. Gryphes October 31, 2011 at 9:05 pm

    Added this photo to their favorites

  4. Flickr: Just Mom November 1, 2011 at 1:30 am

    44-52-2011: Bursting BalloonsSame person you have talked about before? Love the texture on the background.

  5. Just Mom November 1, 2011 at 1:30 am

    Same person you have talked about before? Love the texture on the background.

  6. Flickr: David on LRM November 1, 2011 at 8:58 am

    44-52-2011: Bursting BalloonsLove the picture. Sorry about the story that goes with it. I guess that you are are very tolerant person but sometimes that can only stretch so far…………….

  7. David in Derbyshire November 1, 2011 at 8:58 am

    Love the picture. Sorry about the story that goes with it. I guess that you are are very tolerant person but sometimes that can only stretch so far…………….

  8. i_still_believe_in_u November 1, 2011 at 12:43 pm

    Added this photo to their favorites

  9. Flickr: Free 2 Be November 1, 2011 at 10:23 pm

    44-52-2011: Bursting Balloons@Marne – if you mean recently, then yes.

    @David – I’ve never been a particularly patient person, I think I am getting less tolerant as I get older.

  10. Free 2 Be November 1, 2011 at 10:23 pm

    @Marne – if you mean recently, then yes.

    @David – I’ve never been a particularly patient person, I think I am getting less tolerant as I get older.

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